loss of a cleveland officer

Early this morning(Thurs) when i was on my way home from work i was almost ran off the road by a police office speeding down the road. He was driving so fast that i did not hear his siren till he was on top of my car. At that time i was mad that he was going so fast. That was till i got to west blvd and lorain when i saw 2 more officers speeding east on lorain. At that time i knew that something was wrong. When i got up today i turned on the news as i always do, but this time it was different. There was an office killed in the line of duty. This one hit home because he worked in my district and the shooting was just a few streets away from me. I feel a sense of loss for the neighborhood and for his family. He left behind a wife and a 10 month old son. After i heard the news i had to repent for how i acted this morning with the officer speeding. Some things look one way but can mean another. Alot of times i think that officers go thru lights just to go thur them yet there are times when it is a matter of life and death.
In this shooting there is an issue that needs to be addressed and that is the fact that there are some areas that are weak spots in the vests. The bullett went thru the armpit and into the heart. something needs to be created that protects the sides along with the front and back

Careful when online ording

I just had the most unpleasent couple of days I had made an online order about a month ago. While I was checking out some screens popped up that were part of the website and I thought that I had "X'ed" the page close when I had in reallity I had just ordered 3 different things @ $14.95 a pop + what I had oraginally ordered $12.95. This simple order has cost me in the neighborhood of almost $250.00. A very high price to pay for trying to get something for only the cost of the shipping and handling. I am going to the bank on monday to see if they can help me out by dropping the bounced check charges. I have learned 2 things 1) DON'T due any ording when your tired. 2) READ each box carefully.

trying to keep my focus clear

I'm trying to keep my focus clear and on Jesus. I have made alot of progress and I am pleased. Yet it seems that the more that I focus on Jesus the more I get stuff dumped on me. The other night I made a stand against the pain in my back and it seemed that as soon as I got done the dumping began. My car stop working. (silver lining: friends loaned me their van). For the 1st time I didn't panic about the car not startring. It was the battery. That was thurs. than friday I got a letter that I wish that would have never came. It said that I owed a VERY large amount of money. This was was a part of my monthly income. And because they decided that they over paid me now they want this money in 30 days. This letter really has messed me up of the past 5 days.
Sunday Rob had gotten a word about how we are seeds and that as we break thru the ground all of a sudden all this dirt gets dumped on them and that is where I have been lately. I keep looking at the dirt and not to my Jesus. I have to admit since prayer sunday I have been doing better. I am having to trust that I can make it financially. I will have to cut out alot of things, but I think it can be done with God's help.This is a whole new level of trusting God. I have to learn how to live on a budget.
I am thankful that God has blessed me so much. I have a great home that I have been painting, A great job that allows me to have sundays off for God, A car to get around, 5 wonderful cats and 1 very neat ferrett.

I am Amazed

I am amazed at what God is doing in my life right now. Last night when I got home from work I needed to have some time with God before I went to bed. I got home @ 1:00 am and thought that I was going to get a quick 15 min. but you know how God is and when He wants you He gets you. When I pulled myself off the floor it was 3:00am. Boy does time fly when your having fun.
I have 2 chairs in my living room bay window one for me and one for God. Right now 2 of my 5 cats are having their time with God by sitting on Gods lap. They need there time also. (sounds crazy but did God not create them???)
I had a great time in warfare prayer over my back last night. I got a good night sleep. Well when I got up I had taken my friend to Case to get some work done on her teeth. Well when got to her house to pick her up I turned off the car. When I went to start it back up it wouldn't start. I see it as an attack on my peace because of the battle that I had won just hours before. Thankfully some friends had loned me there van so that I could get to work. I see how I handled the whole car thing as a major victory in my life. I used to get all upset and start to cry and panic not this time by Gods grace I prayed and when it still wouldn't start we took my friends car. Thank you Lord that it wouldn't start at my friends house and at Case.