trying to keep my focus clear

I'm trying to keep my focus clear and on Jesus. I have made alot of progress and I am pleased. Yet it seems that the more that I focus on Jesus the more I get stuff dumped on me. The other night I made a stand against the pain in my back and it seemed that as soon as I got done the dumping began. My car stop working. (silver lining: friends loaned me their van). For the 1st time I didn't panic about the car not startring. It was the battery. That was thurs. than friday I got a letter that I wish that would have never came. It said that I owed a VERY large amount of money. This was was a part of my monthly income. And because they decided that they over paid me now they want this money in 30 days. This letter really has messed me up of the past 5 days.
Sunday Rob had gotten a word about how we are seeds and that as we break thru the ground all of a sudden all this dirt gets dumped on them and that is where I have been lately. I keep looking at the dirt and not to my Jesus. I have to admit since prayer sunday I have been doing better. I am having to trust that I can make it financially. I will have to cut out alot of things, but I think it can be done with God's help.This is a whole new level of trusting God. I have to learn how to live on a budget.
I am thankful that God has blessed me so much. I have a great home that I have been painting, A great job that allows me to have sundays off for God, A car to get around, 5 wonderful cats and 1 very neat ferrett.